Conceiving you felt like death.
Slowly drowning in despair.
The pressure rising to my head.
Only in my womb for a month,
Longing for a mother
That wasn’t actually there
I heard you crying in anguish
It mocked me continuously,
You felt contaminating.
I sank to the bottom,
Laying there, lungs filled, bursting in pain
A dark presence swept over me.
There are a million ways to bleed and
You were gutted out whole
No sea water but my own tears.
She took you from me.
Or
Did I take you away from myself?
Regret and
Heartache
Paralyzed me
Based on a painting