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1. The feeling where you stay up at night, stare at your ceiling, ask yourself an infinite number of questions, then sit there and debate on whether or not you actually want to know the answer.

2. The feeling where you wonder who truly cares about you, and who is just using you; who is there for you, and who is so desperately waiting for you to fail.

3. The feeling where you feel like you're not good enough; that you need to be this, this and this to be successful and liked. You crave for the attention you know you can't have.

4. The feeling where you get frustrated because it's physically impossible to be 100% happy. You want someone to vent to, but no one will understand you.

5. The feeling where you question your value, your worth, your pride, yourself, everything...

and you think.

over think.

all night.


and all your left with is you, yourself, and a very dark place.







"i don't know where to go from here, i don't know who i am anymore," said the anxiety.

she wears t-shirts 3 sizes too big,
she wears jackets and jumpers,
she wears jean and pants,
why,
she is just a normal girl,
or so you thought,

she wears t-shirts 3 sizes too big,
to cover her body,
the bones sticking out,
the insecurities of being fat.

she wears jackets and jumpers,
to cover the scars,
to hide them away,
so no one can question her.

she wears jeans and pants,
to cover the there scars,
the bigger ones,
the more noticeable ones.

why,
she is just a normal girl,
or so you thought.

have i needed someone, as much as i need you,

Never before
have i ever wanted soo badly, as much as i want your arms around me,

Never before
have i thought that this could happen to me, because i don't deserve it.