summer

May 2016

thobile

Emotions

Bleeding is my heart
Restless are my pulses
Torn apart are my veins
Broken is my heart

My poor soul
Longing for peace
My empty mind
Longing for answers
My hurting wounds
Longing to be healed

Yet, It's about time
No words for me
For the abundance
Of tears tells my feelings
And the sad face
Is my inner part
Goodbyes were never
My favourite part of
Of the chapter

Missing you already

A broken heart when I was told that my teacher is leaving us

summer May 2016

**** anxiety

the constant shaking,
and over thinking,
and the insecurities,
mixed with the feeling of always being alone,

**** anxiety,
and the attacks,
the crying,
and the sobbing,
the pain,

stupid anxiety,
for putting me through this this,
for making me hate the people i love,
for causing me to thin **** about them,
when really they are good people,

**** anxiety,
and what i have to do to hide it,
every single day of my life,
i have to stay strong,
and put on a smile to be 'normal',

**** anxiety,
and the stupid emotions it gives me,
the butterflies everyday,
the shaking,
just **** it.

**** anxiety.

summer May 2016

almost forgotten

almost forgotten,
until you check your pockets,
until you feel the paper's edges against your finger tips,
almost forgotten,
until you remember the feeling it gave you,
until you think about the tingling sensation it left,
almost forgotten,
until you touch your lips with a memory of her touch,
until you wake up craving her words and touch.

summer May 2016

Out (9 word story)

you
walked
out
without
an
excuse
to
give
me.

summer May 2016

someone's eyes

could hold a million and one stories,
could hold all the pain in the world,
could fall in love again,
could see the heartbreak,
could see the lies,

someone's eyes
could see through mine,
see my pain,
and see my blame,

someone's eyes
could be someone else's world

summer May 2016

There, But Not Gone

she can't say this is happening again,
for it to happen again,
it would mean it would have had to stop,
ended,
then started again,
but it never ended,
only faded,
to a soft thud,
still there,
but never,
gone,
she can't say it stopped,
because it didn't,
it has always been there,
but just when you were around,
it started to faded,
away slowly,
it was almost gone,
soo close,
if you gave it a bit more time,
she would have been okay,
for once,
but you didn't giver her more time,
you gave her heartbreak,
mixed with heartache,
and the fear of never being good enough,
and not ever being loved,
she can't say she is fine,
and mean it,
because that would be a lie.

summer May 2016

Gotta Get Out

He gave her a choice,
take his hand and go,
she wanted to listen to his voice,
but she also wanted to stay though,

She hated it here,
nights spent alone in a crowd,
mixed with sweat and beer,
suddenly it became too loud,

She needed to get out,
leave this place,
but she was anxious with soo much doubt,
she dreamt too much of what it would be like in outer space,

He was there for her,
more than she deserved really,
and she life was going by in a blur,
she wanted to be okay freely,

She was always sad,
feeling like baggage and not good enough,
always feeling mad,
but she's gotta stay tough,

She wants to feel alive,
and not have to worry about it all,
she wants to turn up the music and go for a drive,
and dance in the dark to the rhythm of the rainfall.