I was giving you an ocean,
but you were holding a cup.
Maybe I loved you
more than you wanted to be loved.

I peel my lips until there’s blood on my fingertips
Bite my inner cheeks ‘til I taste rust on my tongue
Rip the skin off the corners of my nails
And do things to amplify the pain

I stare at the sun until I’m blinded by its brightness
Hold my breath until claws split my mouth open
Punch walls until my hands are too frail to move
But I do nothing to heal

I fall too easily for those who never notice
I care too much for those who never looked my way
I try so hard to fix myself every time I fall
But end up being sliced by yet another force

I torture myself by paying attention
To those who gave me heartbreaks
I can’t seem to rid myself of stupidity
I can’t seem to rid myself of weaknesses

Who says you need others to break
When your will is enough to destroy your soul
Who says you need others to bleed
When everything you are is enough to cut you open

now i have a few mistakes of my own in the bill
and i’m learning to live with them
everyday
slow process
regardless what people think (and keep that in mind)
I take my time
for rebuild the wounds
let them close and heal
until it only remains the scars
the ones who make me even more beautiful
they show I survived
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