Truth told but never believed.
Underestimated because of lies told.
Unheard words lies still winning.
Couldn't trust anyone.
Now you see the lies.
Now its happening to you.
You see the truth now.
Better seen.
Than never seen at all.

Falling leafs and bare tree.
Long nights and tormented dreams.
Frost bitten tears.
The days come and go.
But the pain still hurts.
Death has no sound.
No scent or face.
Saying nothing.
Taking everything.
Death left me Autumn tears

Do it so you don't look bad.
Do it so it gets it out the way.
Do it so it keeps everyone happy.
Do it so it shuts everyone up

A smile to hide how forced you feel.
Some were you don't want to be.
Eyes on the door wanting to get away.
Stuck listening to mindless talk.

Counting to ten never does work.
You tell your self its only for awhile.
Everyone talking to you all at once.
Wishing you could have some peace.

Asking yourself why didn't you say no.
How hard is it to just use your mouth.
Feeling the anger build and build.
Sitting in a place worse than hell.

Can't listen to this small talk anymore.
Can't bear anymore news either.
Can't take the pointless conversations
Thats going no where.

Not saying no leaves you worse off.
Not saying no leaves you bored.
Not saying no leaves you stuck in hell.
Not saying no comes with a price to pay.

Say no fast mean it when you say it.

Teach me to forget beauty such as his.
Let not these eyes gaze upon his warm smile
It's no lie nor a secret, the recalls
of his tender torso still feeds my desire.
When he and I meet on the edge of dreams,
We live in moments I won't remember.
If you must sigh and roll your eyes at me.
Show me another love as fair as him.
The thought of life without him tortures me.
Would one kiss be such an illicit deed?
Do you recall butterflies' cheering wings?.
Mock me if you must, by showing me it is
nothing other than unrequited love.
I've seen people waiting for empty hope.
He fires me to dream of him, does this make
me a fool?, or just a woman in love

Brick by brick he pulled my wall down.
Mending a broken heart.
Breathing life into a lifeless body.
Sitting on the dark side with me when no one else would.
On borrowed time now it has run out.
As the night fades you left.
No good byes.
No kiss before you left.
Leaving only a rose behind.
You left me alone.
Now I am left waiting on you to come back.

Feeling envious
Of the butterfly who flys
To a freedom I'll never know.

No peace no space.
Sleepless nights.
Broken thoughts.
Shattered dreams.
Feeling trapped.
A spinning mind.
Screaming demons.
An exhausted body.
Tired tear filled eyes.
Can't take it anymore.
I just needed time out.

I
Am
On a road but
I don't know
Where its going.

I want
to open up to
You but I don't
Trust you.

I long to
****
The demon
In my head.

I need
to stop
Loving you
Because its
Killing me.

All I see
Now is
A black
Heart.

His smile brought my walls down.
Craving for his touch.
Needing his kiss.
Lost in his eyes.
Feeling things words can't explain.
Desire burns like a wild fire.
Carried out on a tidel wave of emotions.
Higher than the moon.
His devine love stole my heart
His Love made me blind.

My heart is empty.
My eyes are full of tears.
Nothing is ever enough.

Can't smile through the pain.
Counting to ten doesn't work.
Given everything that I have.

Always been there to help.
Never gave up on you.
Nothing really matters.

My heart is heavy and
I can't breath.
Home feels like a prison
Without the bars.
Nine weeks of lockdown
Is finally getting to me.
My mind is fragile.
Walking in dreams.
Escaping this jaded reality.
The news pushes Bill gates
Dangerous vaccine.
Listening to my family agruing
Over 5G and of this virus is real is or not.
While I am just trying to keep my
Head above the water, and keep the wolf away from the door.
Turning off the news because I really
Don't want to hear it anymore.
All I know is this thing is pulling my family apart day by day.

Angry words exchanged like gun fire. stories made lies told the truth twisted. Tears falling like a rain that never ends.

Watching as life falls apart can't go back to the way things use to be. Death calls a life is taking to early. Now nothing can ever be the same.

Laying awake in the darkness of night. Thinking about the prices paid. A life lost and a heart shatter forever more.

Couldn't say good bye.
Never had the chance to say it.

Night is when everything catchs me.
The worry the anxiety the fear.
That loud voice in my head, which begs Me to make it stop hurting.
Trying to heal each wound one by one.
I hate the night because that's when my terror begins.

Fallen poppies a moment to remember.
Sacrifices made life's given and lost.
For our today they gave their tomorrow.
As we grow old and time passes by.
We'll remember what they did for us.