lets just turn our phones off and forget about everything for one night.

Lets shut out the world and pretend that we are the last two people alive.

No need for tv.
No need for movies we have seen so many times.
No need to be with friends.
No need to get drunk.

I have you and you have me nothing else is needed we have it all right here.

I am yours mind body and soul tonight I don't want to share you with anyone.

A mother always knows
The right thing to say.
She makes you laugh
When you don't feel like it.
She comforts you when your
Heart has been broken.
She makes your favourite dinner.
She stands by you when no one else Does.
She loves you no matter what you do.
She always there when no one else is.
When she leaves this world you miss
Her even more.

A starless sky wrapped in an empty dream.
I remember the days where your smile was like a fine wine I loved.
Now it's left a bad taste in my mouth.
In my heart hangs a votive wreaths
Of old withered memories.
Your voice no longer shakes the
Ocean of my sleep.
You where a lesson this comic universe wanted to teach me.
Now all I want to do is forget I ever
Loved you.

Lost smiles and forgotten dreams.
Newly springs roses dancing in the gentle breeze.Remembering past summer days.

A freshly lit barbecue burnt back sausages. Laughing so hard tears rolled down our cheeks.

Thinking our time would last forever, Life ends and your gone.
Now all that's between us is the moon and stars.

Remembering our last summer.

It doesn't matter if
I am sleeping or awake.
Lost in thoughts or day dreams.
I still dream of you.

Loves gentle kiss loves tender touch.
Let soft lips do what gentle hands do.
Carries out on waves of strong emotions.
A venomous kiss I long to taste, letting
The venom stay deep in my veins.
Bring the darkness of the night so I can
Get lost in dreams of what could be.
Can't deny what burns deep in my heart.
William wordsworth saw a host of golden daffodils', William Shakespeare was trying to compare someone to a summers day, Robert burns love was like a red red rose.
Yet I feel something words can't explain.
If this is love I prey it will last.

There's always something

Behind the I am
only joking

Knowledge behind the
The I don't know

Emotions behind the
I don't care

And pain behind the I am okay

Do it so you don't look bad.
Do it so it gets it out the way.
Do it so it keeps everyone happy.
Do it so it shuts everyone up

A smile to hide how forced you feel.
Some were you don't want to be.
Eyes on the door wanting to get away.
Stuck listening to mindless talk.

Counting to ten never does work.
You tell your self its only for awhile.
Everyone talking to you all at once.
Wishing you could have some peace.

Asking yourself why didn't you say no.
How hard is it to just use your mouth.
Feeling the anger build and build.
Sitting in a place worse than hell.

Can't listen to this small talk anymore.
Can't bear anymore news either.
Can't take the pointless conversations
Thats going no where.

Not saying no leaves you worse off.
Not saying no leaves you bored.
Not saying no leaves you stuck in hell.
Not saying no comes with a price to pay.

Say no fast mean it when you say it.

I tried.
You gave up.
I staid.
You left.
You texted.
My battery died.
The best thing that ever happen.

The faces behind the masks tell,
The biggest lies.
Living fake life's needing attention.
Always having to prove they know
Everything better than you.
When it's your time to shine they
Steal your light.
Kicking you back into the shadows.
Because know if you look better than
Them they won't like it.
Watching them sitting catching rust.
Each day goes up in a puff of smoke.
Yet I am always judged on everything.

Looking back at all the pointless fights and sleepless nights, worrying about everything. It took so much more from me than you can understand.

Worrying all the time laying a wake with a million thoughts in my head. Crying in the darkness of night were no one can see.

I can't do this anymore I am not strong enough to keep fighting over and over. That's why it's all over no more fighting or worrying.

                           it's all over now

It all seems so stupid now.
There was so much to say.
Now its too late to say it.

I can't come to you for advice.
I can't talk to you for hours.
I can't tell you how my day was.
I can't tell you I love you.

Standing by your grave
With tears in my eyes.
When you died so did my world.

Inside I am a screaming angry mess.
Always turning the other cheek.
Walking away from arguments.
Never reacting to what people say.
Counting to ten until the anger passes.
Writing poems to keep my mind busy.
Why do I never let my anger go?.
Why do i never say what's on my mind.
Why I do i spare other peoples feelings,
When they never spare mines?.
Am i too nice or I am a door matt?.

Theres something's you can't forget.
Sounds of falling tears in the night
Never leave you.
Saying it will be okay when you
Know It won't be okay.

The best hug doesn't take the pain away.
You hold on to any hope that you can find.
So many years pass by so much time
Faded away.

But after all this time and the broken
Promise.
The pain still hurts the still.
I will remember and recover but
I'll never forgive or forget.

My heart is heavy and
I can't breath.
Home feels like a prison
Without the bars.
Nine weeks of lockdown
Is finally getting to me.
My mind is fragile.
Walking in dreams.
Escaping this jaded reality.
The news pushes Bill gates
Dangerous vaccine.
Listening to my family agruing
Over 5G and of this virus is real is or not.
While I am just trying to keep my
Head above the water, and keep the wolf away from the door.
Turning off the news because I really
Don't want to hear it anymore.
All I know is this thing is pulling my family apart day by day.

I pray every night hoping
That God hears me.
Hiding feelings in lines of poems.
Laying awake missing old faces.

Asking my self why I am so broken?.
Why am I not healing?.
Why won't they listen to me?.

My mum's pain didn't stop until
The day she died.
My brothers and sister smoke the
Pain away.

Is it okay not to be okay?.
Is it okay not wear a fake smile?.
Is it okay not to always be strong?.

I remember why I could see the
Beauty in everything.
Now I see nothing and feel nothing.

Should have known better.
Should have staid away.
Should not have got to close.
Should not have plaid with the fire that's burning me.
Turn the light on someone wake me up.
He's stealing my dreams and taken my heart.

Broken minds and bleeding wounds.
Words that can't change anything.
Saying sorry doesn't make it better.

When the past isn't dead and you
Keep suffering in your head.

Do you know what it is like to feel
Pain that hurts so much you can't breath?, because I feel it everyday.

Silence is,
Hearing the sound of your own
Thoughts.
while the darkness stares at you.
Is there a sound of silence like the song says? Is silence really golden.
Maybe silence is what we want it to be.