like condensation on my window
You will make your way inside
How you enter, I will never know
Not like a ghost gliding through the door
But a stray piece of spirit you didn't know existed
Swaying on the inside of my mind

Summer arrived and my home became the sun and leaves,
sleeping in hammocks, and swinging trees
The winds rocking me asleep
And I, blissfully unaware
I left The front door unlocked
And I misplaced my key

But I've spent too much time worrying about how and what if
Too much time wondering if you only knew
There's Too many songs I haven't heard
and too much time wasted waiting for you
And one day there will be someone
who will ring the doorbell and ask to come in
And we will sit and talk
And be the only things on each others minds
And like condensation on my window
I will wipe you away
Close the curtain
And shut my eyes

It's a taste of a sorrow you can't drink
and it stays forever on your tounge
It's the things that they said
pushing you to the edge
cause you know that you'll never be one

It's the bones hidden inside your closet
And the corpse open eyed in your hands
It's the way that you walk
What you think how you talk
It's okay it's okay
Wait 'till they see what you've planned

So smile like they never cut you open like you're not bleeding out on the ground
Well I've got a new type, a new type of poison and they'll wish they never shut me out
They're gonna miss me they'll say that they're sorry
Well they're gonna notice when I'm not around
'Cause I've got a new blood
I've got a new blood
And I'm golden from the inside out

Think of the person you should be
Now think of the person you are
Think of the way when it hurts you will pray,
But when you're good your pretend you're not far

Think of how this is your body
And no one else sees what you see
You are right here and the one thing you fear
is that they will remember all the things that you did

So smile like they never cut you open like you're not bleeding out on the ground
But I've got a new type a new type of poison and
They're gonna miss me they'll say that they're sorry
Well they're gonna notice when I'm not around
'Cause  I've got a new blood
I've got a new blood
And I'm golden from the inside out

What are you crying about this time?
They'll never catch you
Just keep on running
Running
I just wanted to make this right
This is your blood
This is your pain
Let the river come and wash it all away

Hello
It's nice to see you
Across the room with your chin on your hand
Quietly listening, pensively waiting
For the time to end
On my end no thought is given
Ok, Maybe a glance from time to time, I must admit
"What do you know about him?
He doesn't seem too bad."

Hello
Its nice to meet you
This time in a different way
I make jokes and laugh it off
But I'm starting to notice more and more often
That I'm asking questions and talking more than I'd like
Just so you can look up and see me
Just see me, that's all I want
I haven't been like this in over four years
I forgot how this felt
and why I waited so long to feel like this again

Hello
It's nice to speak to you
for the first time since I first saw you
I pick up my spilled bag early so I can run out with the bell
Through the hallway on the opposite of my next class
like I do everyday
And everyday I wonder if I should say something;
"Did we have any homework?"
And you would answer
But I say nothing
And I always wish I did

Hello
I'd like to tell you
So many things that I know I never will
I never thought I'd pray for small talk
Yet here I am being put on hold
One conversation, one laugh that I produced is all I want!
I just don't know how to get it

Hello
If it's okay with you
Let's go somewhere alone
and pretend to be people we're not

Hello hello
If she's the one for you
That's fine but let the verdict be close
Second place is fine
But I'd like to be in the running

Hello hello hello
The things I thought were true
Don't hold up like they used to
You don't have to play guitar
Your job doesn't have to be a dream
Everything new I learn is suddenly fine by me

Hello hello hello hello
I'd like to be to you
A classmate
A partner
A colleague
An old friend
If that's what you need me to be
Just please
Don't let me be a stranger

I walked away
And you didn't realize
I was looking back
because I loved you

I walked away
And you didn't realize
That I walked away,
But I didn't run

I can’t hear anyone at all
I think I went deaf
but I still hear the door slamming
and the harsh screams telling me to wake up
I see lips moving, but no words come out
I hear machines beeping, but everything stays the same

late at night I wonder where you went
and why you had to leave
you must be so happy now,
in your wondrous place without me

but slowly, I’m losing sense of who you are
I can’t move my arms
or feel the tips of my fingers
my throat is closing
my thoughts become scattered
and I can’t remember where I am
--at least now the beeping is softer

I can’t hear myself at all
I guess that I must have left, too

I do not have a reason to be sad
I do not hunger
or freeze
or burn
so I will put your weight on my shoulders
every day I will carry
the pain
the grief
the mourning
I will become the scapegoat
of your transgressions
before my own
in my mind
I will hunger
I will freeze
I will burn
because the sorrows I already carried
wasn't more than I deserved