I refuse to beg, and yet refuse to believe
That such emotions can so quickly leave
From pure hearts and longing eyes
That swept me away in complete surprise
I hate, I writhe, I love, I long
For the only time I felt so strong
For what I lost with what I gained
Even the moments in utter pain
Over a perfect story that can’t be writ
For the perfect match, the perfect hit
That I never want to find again
I just can’t, I won’t, see other men
Yet you’re gone and in such a blaze
Leaving me dead and in a daze
Oh why oh why oh cruel time
Did you make then cut that delicate line
So that a time of gifts, love and good will
I can only want to find, cry and ****
**** the fate that gave him to me
Only to take him back so cruelly.