My bones are fragile and weak, i feel as if I'm just a skeleton.
Not the first time either
Flashing lights and sirens. The church bells.
I'm awake now!
Conscious, careful, cordial, cocky.
I'm done now

I stand in the doorway as you sit there with a flushed face
and puffy eyes
I know you still love her but now you walk around with a shield over your heart
because you are afraid
I cannot love you in the same ways she did
And maybe nobody else will

I anxiously pace around my room
Thinking about that cute boy. Why is he always there in the back of my mind?
“I’m sure he’s not that special” I say hesitantly into the silence trying to make myself believe it but I don’t

We talk and I sit there looking at you but your mind has wandered off again,
I have lost your attention and your wasting it on some one who does not care
“Not like I care” “Not like I care” “Not like I care" my mind screams

The flowers are wilting and so am I
Down, down, down into the unknown
Let's hope they like me there because I don't want to leave
As I'm falling I hear you calling out to me
"Sophia, I love you don't do this"
I don't stop to think
You are a waste of my time which I don't have much of
I wish you would say "Never mind"
A small tear forms and drops onto my cheek
Then suddenly it's been pouring rain for a week