Out of darkness.
Out of dusk.
Out of red blood
and gray fur.
I come.

From cramped cells
and shadows.
From hunger
and death.
From behind
silver bars.
I come.

From the smell
of wolf's bane.
From blurred forms
and fast blows.
From whispers of
“Your death will come.”
“This time I won.”
I come.

From sleepless nights
and lost identity.
From scars and
open wounds.
From slow healings
and fatal mistakes.
I come.

From underground
where no one knows
and all are brought.
From the sting
of blessed silver.
From never seeing
light.
I come.

From waiting,
watching.
From fear of
falling.
From old battles
and new fights.
I come.

From hopelessness
and despair.
From the frenzied
will to fight.
From hell
I come.

For everything you do is done to please me
Curled hands in to fists when I would never stay
Said if you love me leave me be
But you needed to back away
I watched as you started to see
That I was just radioactive decay
Nothing but sharp rocks and sliding scree
And there was nothing between us but Judgment day

You couldn't help her
It's not your fault she wasn't meant for this
She didn't mean to hurt you
Didn't intend to do you harm

You tried hard to be there
Through the storms and the seasons
The deaths and the births
But you were always static
Easily tuned out

She said she had to find out for sure
Didn't say goodbye, left trinkets on the doorstep
She didn't even knock before going
Desperate for a change she said

It's not your fault she left
Not because you weren't there
You were when you could
No one could've asked so much of you

You tried until you failed again
Years passed and you're still not good at this
People change too quickly to grab hold of
Couldn't hold her back if you tried too

People are always leaving
You knew this before you were born
Your sister lost herself in the woods
Your Mama stopped the emptiness with a train

Surely it wasn't on purpse they fled
Just a chance you were passed along hands
Played with and loved, safe until you weren't
A throw away kind of freind

She was everything
The light on the blades of grass in the morning
The moves and swirls of sunshine
Your world defined in a coat of gold

You had no one
A steady stream of faces that were gone with the tide
No one was ever tied to you
Always you to them, bound with thread

She became a boulder to hold
Carry with you in your pocket
An anchor with a beating heart
Keeping you tethered in this life

It's not your fault she's gone like autumn leaves
That everyone's been clammering to escape
The world and you too
They're just tired of this place

Don't cry for those that went
They're happier without you to take up space
You were just a bug to be squashed
An inchworm who couldn't crawl

Trouble happens around corners
You couldn't see it brewing in the distance
Didn't do anything to keep them safe
They choose their paths away

You'll just need to live again
Paint a smile across your face to hide the fear
Cover up the scars and scratches
Remake your world withought her

You'll be alright in the end
Though the grass might dance above your head when it all ends
There's those who've made do with less
You should feel blessed at one more lifeless day

And in the end you were just
A **** growing in the flowers
A bad seed that strangled all you held dear
Leftover when the leaving starts

But it's not your fault
Oh my dear it's not your fault
You can't be what you are not
This was never about you sweet heart

It's not your fault and neither is she

Life grows in a swamp
The croak of frogs and the chirp of crickets
The sway of cattails in the breeze
The bend of soft, sweet, grass
Mossy puddle
Rich with life

Sweet smell of rot, of plant decay
The buzz of insects,
Zip of dragonflies hunting for a meal
Lily pads float lazily
While a heron stalks its prey

Tadpoles wiggle in the mire
Sunlight warms the green water
There's something about the life of a swamp,
The deep mud,
And deeper waters

The waves rocked the frothing sea and salt stings the wounds
Oh he said he'd never loved me through the heat and hurt
The deck rocks beneath my feet and I still stand before him
And he's screaming, he's screaming out my name
Every word is a temptest, every word is a storm
And these waves are getting higher without anything to hold
Buzzing in my ears, beating in my heart

Waves around your neck, foam in your lungs
I'm drowing! Please don't drown with me!
But we're already sinking, planks are breaking and the water's coming in
Oh the water's coming in
And salt stings as it goes down, you brought this on yourself
I was drowning long ago and now those tears have found home
Oh we're going down! What a time to drown1

You always said bad luck came when a women went aboard
One word and it's over, the tidal waves are rising
Froth, foam, white and green glass covering in sheets
Wrapped up in each other's strings there's no room for us to breathe
And we're going down

I'm drowing! Please don't drown with me!
The seaweed wraps around us
Nothing left but a wreck
No air for these lungs

I used denial for so long
It was my breath and life and love
But now....when the're all gone
and the silence builds up like cold cruel snow
Burrying everything
Now she's made me start to see
the world through her eyes
I know the patterns, cried my heart out
Is there anything left inside?
The truth will rip you apart, set you free
It's the pain that truely makes you see.

Many leaves one tree
But in the end every leaf
Falls and dies
Alone

Out of free mists
Out of twisted vines
From the shadows
From the bayou
I come

From hard times
and early risings.
From pain
and suffering
From fresh loss
and old happiness
I come

From old scars
and new wounds
From broken antlers
and whole spirit
From whispering leaves
and swaying branches
I come

From dark green forests
where secrets are
kept
and mosquitoes
buzz

From mountain
after mountain
From hard losses
and easy wins
I come

From complex life
to simple passing
From joy
and
sorrow

To greener pastures
I will go
My circle complete
Mudawar