traumatic events bind us together,
I will always be a part of you,  
and you a part of me.

it's 3 am
and I am
desperately missing you

tonight feels heavy
my mindsets deadly
how do I change?
I am tired of playing this game
chasing after something
that I am afraid doesn't exist

I am angry
I am sad, confused

when do the clouds clear?
when will my cherry checks dry?
tears constantly fall from my eyes.

I lied
when I said I was ok
because I am actually
really ******* broken inside.

sadness is my oldest friend
he’s always there for me
even when I want him
to go home