Every time we talk,
I'm falling further for you
Every time you're around,
I'm wanting you closer to me
And every time I share this truth,
You recoil and step further away

I barely know you
And I don't know
whether my feelings
will grow
But I think about
how I have to speak loudly
if I want you to hear
And I wonder
If I ever tell you
my secrets
How will it feel
to speak them boldly
As if I'm finally
voicing everything
about the world
that hurts
for the first time

So you don't hear well, you say
Left ear a bit better than right
You're a little apologetic at first
But you look me in the eye
And at my lips when they move

When you look away
You don't hear me sometimes
But maybe that's okay
Maybe I could learn from you
To speak with more intent

I wait as your head is turned
And due to your brief absence
When you look back my way
I brighten all the more

You make me so sad
Have fun in your new state
The one that's the opposite
Of where you wanted to live
Thanks for inspiring my heart to hate
It feels worse than I'd imagined
But it's all I have now sometimes
I just can't believe you

I almost cry
In this restaurant
by myself
Thinking
about
How I have
a good
heart
And
How this girl I just
met
Might find out
But
I'm not really ready
for that

How long do I have to deal with an internal shitfest
How long will I think she's a good person
Will I ever look at her the way others do
My friend thinks she strung me along, too
He says he confronted her about it and she got quiet
She does that when she disagrees
She doesn't want to argue
She just likes agreeable people
She's incapable of being honest
Why do I still love this girl?
Because she's ******* beautiful

Nothing left to give,
I take a double shot of whisky,
Ironically,
From the shot glass she gave me