this is what I get for being confident
for being proud of my body for once
inevitable sadness
and the feeling of self loathing
and also
feeling as if
I'm never good enough.

i just had my heart
broken
in the most painful
way
that you can, which is
by
someone you thought
would
always come back

i used to think
i wasn't okay
and i wasn't happy
but then
you came
and changed it
and made me
feel different
and for that
I
am
thankful

you took
every bit of happiness
and stored it
in a fragile case

you took
all my love
and stored it there, too

so when
you dropped
my case

my happiness
and love
were shattered

and you
walked away
still whole

i killed flowers for you
(they died)
i killed daisies
(to be specific)
you told me you loved me
(you lied)
i saw you picking out roses
i thought they were for me
(i was ecstatic)
you gave them to someone else
(i died)

so i'm sorry
for asking for more
and hoping
and praying
you felt the same
and hoping
and praying
the nights up meant
something
obviously
i
was
wrong

i hate to quote a song
but they say that love is forever
i hate to quote a movie
but we accept the love we think we deserve
i thought i deserved more
i thought  our love was forever
but it was 2 AM
and you left me
**again