The real truth is that I am scared to be alone that’s why I don’t leave you. But I am also scared to be with the wrong person and that’s why I dont want to be with you.

I crossed oceans, rode the highest mountain,  fished Piranhas, fought with a crocodile and I am not able to succeed any challenges in my love life ... really ? That’s so stupid

Love is too challenging, can I surrender ?

Everything
that makes me happy - makes you sad
Everything
I believe in - is not important for you
Everything
I want for the future - scare you
Everything
I make - never complete you
Everything
I like - is not a priority for you
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How can you love everything I am if you don’t understand anything I think.

I am perfectly fine by myself, I rarely need someone to tell me what to do, who to be, what to want.
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When I am all alone, I need someone to tell me that I am amazing and deserve it all.
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I hate lies but in those moment I just need a lier
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My happiness can’t be linked with anyone, I need to become my own lier.

I don’t know what I miss,
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I have been taught;
By the TV that I should be a princess,
By my mum that I should look like a princess and fight like a soldier.
But I am definitely not a princess :
- I eat like a dinosaur
- I walk like an elephant
- I talk loader than anyone
- I dress like a ninja
- I sing like a drunk teenager
- I prefer my drunk walk than the cat walk
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It’s supposed to be like in a film this is what I miss: the unconditional love that I see on screen or maybe I just miss you...
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I never know what I miss