music
fills my world with light,
dancing to Cavetown in my room,
letting the happiness fill me up
like nectar
falling asleep to Madilyn Mei,
listening
until the world goes quiet,
a rare moment of pure joy
despite the cloudy uncertainty of the world,
i exist only for myself in that moment

playing with matches lit
listening to the fight
sitting on the stairs
knowing it all
but not helping
you always said
a child not embraced by the village
will burn it down to feel its warmth
but now your house is flaming
the blaze flickers between your teeth
the child plays in the shadows of the fire
what will you do now?

yelling
screaming
numb
numb
numb
the thread broke
now its not the voices telling me to
**** myself
its

me

we're all just hanging on
Ahalya could go any day
Rowan's already tried
so have i
but every thread
is different
and sometimes our threads get
tangled
if Alice goes,
what happens to Kayleena?
if Lex goes,
what happens to Grey?
if they go
can my thread break too?

Countless hours,
Infinite moments,
The time encapsulated
In bottles of memories

Stored in a shelf,
Right by the door,
To remember the life
Close to my heart

But you had to shake,
The earth that I stand,
Breaking precious bottles-
Wrecking my mind