Yesterday I promised myself never to make the same mistake
Tonight I won’t mind you telling me I’m pretty
Tonight I’ll relish your compliments, be the tangible version of all your fantasies
For one night I’ll accept whatever and whoever comes my way
For one night I’ll ignore the bitterness in your kisses
For one night I’ll ignore myself and my own wishes
By dawn, I’ll hate myself for it
By dawn, I’ll realize that I deserve something real, that I deserve something more
Next week I’ll regret my actions by day, yet relish in them by night
In one year, I’ll realize that I don’t learn and maybe never will

No one hears the scream of the muffled mouth
No one hears the cry of the dying heart
No one hears, because they do not listen

A cry of pain, of anguish, of anger
Radiating from a silent scream
That tears her every fiber

"I'm fine" is all they heard
For they block out the truth
For a pretty little lie

i feel lost somewhere in existence
unhappy with my state of being
someone hit the pause button on my life but i am still going
no one is speaking to me, no one acknowledges me
i am walking alone in a world that does not care
trudging knee-deep in unwanted apathy
and the levels are rising and i am so afraid
so afraid to get complacent
there is no purpose in life but to live
and i am surviving, just barely, but not alive
pushing blindly with no one beside me
and no end goal in sight