If only you knew
how much I think of you
Old conversations in my head
Yes, I reminisce
Like the mental image
of when we first kissed
If only you knew
I pray for you
I pray to see if this is true
I know you're scared
& I will not lie
I am too
Yet, it takes two
to conquer fears
I am willing to
Are you?
If only you knew
I'd face it all
just to be with you

Hearts are for people
Hearts break
Hearts crack
So I'm glad I'm an alien
This way nothing gets stolen
My organs are intact
Just as I left them in fact
Dopamine doesn't invade my brain
There's no need to play silly games
So I'm glad I'm an alien
This way I feel no pain

Ya ever read a book
N think
"**** I'm in this book"
I am Sarah Grimke
Sally from A Nightmare
I am Jodi Picoult's
version of a heroine
But it isn't much a nightmare
But a life so much like mine
Just lacking uncertainty
Regarding fear
Anxiety
These women knew what to do
And I

I feel your mission
I know why you did what you've done
It was so clear, but
for me,
who is my enemy?

I want to hide
Under or in a tub
So long as
You can't find me

Is this my millenial
sloth, gluttony?

We try try try
Nothing becomes of it

You are so drunk and you say that
You're dying
I ask you,
*What is your insurance policy?

the first would be for world peace
my second would be for eternal life
my third would be for three more

My mom can't figure out why all the knives are getting dull