No song from future, ***, wayne
Can describe this feelin' and or pain
From the beginning till the end **** got stained.
Like a scar it won't go away

Stayin' up all night like it's nothin'
Maybe I try to show off that im bluffin'.
Or exaggerate the fact I'm hurtin'
On the corner wet as hell but lowkey dryin'
Messed up, mad man, tarzan
Confused like tape on a rubberband
Can't sleep without thinking of back then
When I hugged, kissed dreamed about you or just holding your hand.

Pillow cases they show all the real faces
The ones when you can't sleep during different phases.
Of the night, and in the morning you can tell all the traces.
From all those signs down there it amazes.

Probably don't won't or ever just care
But this was not intended for you to be a dare.
And I am stuck looking for an exit that is not ever there.
Yet my feels still strong **** I hope you still care.

Probably act tough to be buff
But inside I am hollow like a cracked up oeuf
And the real me Aint what you see but from the stuff
The lil dam stuff from the times I was still happy and with a bust.

Probably this won't make sense.
For you because I may delete this soon.
But if there were a word to describe everything I there is right now..
I'd say immense.

I feel like I am on a retrace
Slowly being replaced
By a small little low face
In a big world where he got no place
It's like crusin down a freeway
But still losin on the big race
Try being a disgrace
To yourself like its all plié
Still walking on a slow pace
More lone than NASA in space

Where nothing really matters
And my mind is in some scatters
Get all your sadness in a platter
Eat it up while you're getting flatter
Lyrics everywhere like I just had a splatter
Spittin on a mic they call me grand master
Yet my emotions are unorganized some would call it natter
Like if they were in a ball and my mind was a batter
Throw it by chance land low then make it a clatter
May land and ******* up but it don't matter
Well it landed on me so now my body shatters

May be so sad with all my lows
But now I'm some kid that nobody knows.
1:04 am and I am expectin a lil show
Or am I too late? did I miss my flow?
Did anyone bring the drinks for the party I was about to throw?

To forget about our lives hittin up like drive by's
Got everybody leavin they say bye bye
Used to be that kid that would just cry all night
But got used to it now I act alright.
Getting used to every punch like it was cake right?
Take a lil piece and say it was easy right?
Where life is not a game but I got played by life
****** up so hard lost myself out on sight.
Don't be me and do alright.
Maybe you won't be like me being blue all night.
I hope everyone that left is doing alright.
I hope this dont last any longer cold like a frost bite
Hope I can get it back. My might for the fight
I hope I can get it back, my little shining light.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry I'm sorry
I'm sorry for everything that's gory
I am sorry for the times I went off lost like finding dory

Ain't no remedy to fulfill just a dying story
Staying up till 3 in the morning
Just think to myself **** have i stopped growing?
Should I stop going? Should I stop knowing?
The truth, the one the two the three that too?

Bare **** on my life now I been countin shoes
Got none got some but that don't matter now
Tryna figure this situation out like a Rubik's cube
****.. alot for lil freshman who get bare to no sleep he lookin blue

My mind been driftin apart of me like since forever
I know you would like a good message to fulfill endeavors
Got bare Ks on my account you can't even count
But yet this all pulling me down out like a lever

Got jello on my counter I feelin so mellow
Someone please tell me that this emoji aint yellow
Well wish I was a pokemon I would be swellow
Atleast I would be out this life pulling out like a cello

Was I told, was I warned that it would be like this?
What happened bad before seems like it was all a bliss
It's like everyday I feel high daydreaming in the mist
Of all the times that happened last year I wished that now I miss

Remember this remember that
Sebastian went down like splash
Look at me ain't got no cash
Broke, nope I feel like I'm about to dash

But life been comin
I be feelin somethin
I feel everything
I got bare people blocking me for every single **** thing

Lost people or the people left
Someone call the cops I got a heart theft
Pieces I won't get back like posting something on the internet
Maybe I don't need a genie because maybe this how life's set

You wanna bet?
My whole life on it how is that instead
Girl that's what she said
My whole life is like a gamble it's all a game in my head

Roll a dice
Hit it twice
Got it bad? too bad
I was tryna be nice how bow dah.

No jokes maybe one maybe me
Maybe some just a son
Weigh a ton
Say I will change but I do nun.

Feels honestly
The hypocrisy
They all miss me
But no one care to see.
Yours truly.