When the sun turn cold,
and oxygen only breathes out,
mamas will cry "my seeds stopped blooming."

-Shahrukh Zamir

My duas folded hands with wishing wells,
wonder if sinner pray their daily 5,
20 years of slaves to my creator,
ironic why am I chained to this life,

Times where broken bills don't carry change,
and money taste like shay-tan,
When clouds grows there horns out,
not enough good deed get rains on,

This  world need to get refurbished,
paid work shifts don't excuse refused worship,
just like when death chuck deuces,
don't mean it mean the peace signs,

Im dead tired with strength alive  
enough to poke holes through a loopholes
I cant allow ourselves to dumb it down,
if we come to  bring truth to the pseudos,

I cant discriminate with y'all
Son of your God, we see as messenger,
You say only god can judge me ,
like you forget judgement day come with hot temperatures?

Do you remember?

You used hide a smile,
that could blind the moon and stars,
With a mind that carried geniuses
yet clueless to think we'd come this far,

Do you remember?

You used to hide inside a cocoon,
afraid to break through that shell,
You finally bloomed through years of trust and care,
and into my arms you fell,

Do you remember?

Holding on to your fears,
afraid no touch would be warm enough to dry away your tears,
And to think a  man like me would disappear ,
did you ever think for once Id still be here.

Do you remember?

My dreams sleep in fortune,
My reality lives in nothing,
Today lies in empty promises,
And Tomorrow's a heavy burden,

Today's grind is heavier than ever.
but slim-fasting away those sunny weathers.

And still......

20/20 eye vision turn impaired, misleading,
My mind breaking through distractions,
Today's world is looking sicker,
and still isn't done sneezing

Love at first sight
have flying fireworks turn spark-less
Saw a virtuous man,
lusting away his heart to the heartless,

The thirst is staying homeless,
so *** is up for charity,
cold women make it so hot,
I might asked her to marry me,

Let the awkwardness subside
watched her eyes bleed deception
how do broken hearts compromise with bad timing,
with her name written all over broken reflection

I even tried to beat the odds,
Eating steaks wont help me walk away from this dice game
I seeing dark scars of mine,
burning into bright pains,

So much sour found,
in this sweet escape with you,
I couldn't swim in a floatie outfit,
but she drowned me into her deep blue

And still...
I choose to play sucker for love,
continuing on my winning spree,
Teeing up the mean,
to something that wasn't meant for me

Them heart-shaped lips,
every part of her frame built-in flawless,
Those paint brushed lashed coloring up portraits,
of us as one,

Our larynx wont hold our tongues
from  singing choruses,
and now my spines chills dying out in rigamortis,
It hard to walk your line
along your modeled looking mind,
when those shimmers are  anti- gorgeous,

And Still..

You bring hell,
for someone looking like heaven,
and life with you is sin,
than I'm counting up my blessings,
but I keep throwing feeling and that catching you wont do
Deceivers make believers
  keep falling for you.

And Still..

Today I lie homeless,
living empty out of cash,
Today I lie hopeless,
thinking of how long will it last,

Today I taste the feeling of those deprived,
Will it make you want to leave
or would you stay and remain
fighting through my plight,

How deep is your love?

Today our meals came from picking in the trash?
We are starving yet filled from all this pressure,
As a couple we lie in trouble
but as for you, is this make you love me lesser?

Today we are  bare sheltered in the cold streets,
will you still be happy and watch up over me,
in which ways will you react?
will you still be here or disappear in a flash,

How deep is your love?

Today I've hit rock bottom
dwelling in the depths of poverty
Today all smiles turned solemn
do my downfalls keep you from loving me?

Living through these trialed times,
in which everything has failed to mold,
will you let every piece of fall apart,
or still have me to hold?

Because honestly as of now,
I've hit the peak of my downfall,
Stumbling, down tumbling,
to crumbling giving it my all,

Aside from you ,
I'm shunned away from world of pleasures,
caught up in the mix
trying to get it things back together,

What if we were in absence,
to these moments of bliss,
would I be dismissed,
or in your eyes still exist?

How deep is your love?..

They went against there word,
misguiding me saying they'd  stay,
I called them in times of need,
they were gone as quick as yesterday,

They told me they were true,
true friends never turn away,
but they never questioned what I was going through,
nor if I was doing okay,

Regardless,I always spoke to them about my problems,
hoping they help or feed me some advice,
They always pretend to concern and listen,
yet little did they care inside,

They never asked about my goals
where I was heading in my career,
I was just there puppeteer,
Im much better off without them here,

They only talked to about about was partying,
money for smokes, ***, and beer,
disillusioned to myself was I
thinking for me that they'd be there,

Today I sit here guilty
to why i wasted by time with them,
messing my life up more,
when I was barely hanging off a stem,


They were supposed to turn me into a better person,
with these blessing came such curse,
They had me thinking I was doing good,
just to find myself doing much more worst,

Today in solitary state I remain,
in search of my true purpose,
looking for those who sustain til end,
not these "friends" who played me worthless.

I'm unaware to where I am headed,
but today is special to me,
After countless steps and years of walking ,
I've finally hit the remainder of what was for my life to see,

I crossed paths with someone
so genuine and sweet ,
who shaded in that missing piece
and made my life complete,

No idea does she have,
of how long it is I've waited ,
to search for the kind of love,
for which cannot be traded.


c)2011

I'm going in this journey,
anxious to what i"ll find ,
but I've chosen 2 follow my heart,
and forget all that in my mind,

Now I don't have it all ,
matter of fact i don't have a dang thing,
just a broken soul from a broken home,
hanging off loose strings,

But, I'm still holding on through all the pains ,
my smile is still maintained,
knowing that one day in time,
sunshine will come from rain,

No time to give up hope now,
look back so far long I've came,
through all the troubles grew from from struggle,
now look who've I became,

A young man determined ,
aimless on his quest for greatness,
just to see his mother smile with tears,
from telling her he made it,

Again, I'm just on this journey,
with no conscious to where ill be,
trying light bulb through all the darkness,
and find someone perfect enough for me,

To find a women as strong as me,
with every ounce of breath she sings,
notes to the sounds of our flesh,
from the happiness we bring,

And if there be more misery in this path,
then so be it at least I tried,
Killing myself to  pay you back through the entire world,
for every drop of those tears you've cried.

-Shahrukh Zamir

Sweetheart with a sweet heart,
that beat up against sour times,
only to freeze up like statues.

-Shahrukh Zamir

Those looks swallowed me at first glance,
the language of you lips spoke fluent truth ,
with a heart that pumped genuine love,
that shot arrows only cupids could shoot,

I'm so in Love..

Those hands feed charity,
you're so selfless but so selfish when you hold me,
And distance is not distant enough.
To gap us apart  from closely,

I'm so in Love..

Your beautiful smile is wide enough ,
it curves up skittle'd rainbows,
that tornado away the smokey clouds,
and turn darkness into halos,

I'm so in Love..

The understanding  within your frame of mind,
we turn our pains in to bloopers,
So I picked your Nose  full of senses of humor,
that smell like the laugh we'll have throughout our  future,

I'm so in love...

With your beliefs and ideologies,
with desires to swim upstream,
That ambition is built in flawlessly,
enough to help encourage my dream.

I'm so In Love..

Handicap wheelchairs refuse to sit down,
Musical chairs in the background,
Its outstanding to stand out.

-Shahrukh Zamir

I feel like a ****** doo trying to figure out tomorrow ,
I should have known, living like I owned this world,
Just to find out this life is borrowed,

A game of jeaopardy
what your worth's worth? and whats your wager?
Some say they never asked to be put here?
So why  they up come out of labor?

Questions marks
and questionable thoughts...

Like  if  that past  is behind why does it often revisit?
Like exes who hit the exit just to reenter like they never existed?

Life likes to play and we part of the game..

Before my past passes away,  
I'll probably die the day before tomorrow come,
everyday im indulged in something new from something old
I guess his story a history  to learn from,

Life...

Shoes tied just in case I trip,
and if so Ill file a case judge it tried to throw me off a cliff,
I hope life get a life sentence  for the scantrons its put me through,
Just to test of how much of it I can hang on too,

The unknowns to make known..

I feel like a problem solver  with handful of all the questions
that's ironically still starving,
creating my own answers,
We  are artist to  sculpt  our own living
I'll use my paint brush to the carving.

-Shahrukh Zamir

A crystal vision
that fortune tells,
like sparrots in my spirit,
but rather, bought a ticket for God to  pay me visit,

I hope he answers
no phones by his thrones,
above outer space
but lives within our inner
with open ears,
that answer prayer
the unseen near ,

I hope my feather glisten,
when I fly and shine,
broken wings holding on to parachutes
that skydive up the winds,
Tell gravity
Im jonesin to climb.

Been distant from home sweet home..
Left eating a Sour patchs,
and packed my bags ( beneath you eyes) ,
Long roads with no sleep,
Extra steps  in paps broken shoes
that I got to outfit wearing a travel packed outfit..

All Smiles but sunny days are dead,
Like who worries about the storms ahead,
Seen some with cigarettes for stress
knowing theyll only blacken my breath

Lungs in cemetaries,
Air attached to inhalors not enough for this journey,
perhaps instill Mayweather stamina,
to box out a circle of squares when they box me in,
hardships float on my uppercuts
let God and money band aid my wins.

Love holds hands with lust,
Stomach butterflies hide back in there cocoons,
She knows he's different, but they all  look the same.

-Shahrukh Zamir

Tears flood into dry deserts,
Arrows in hearts dart down cupids,
The caring turn careless.

-Shahrukh Zamir

My umbrellas always dressed for the occasion,
feels adorned being gripped around my thick palms,
Ironic you block out the pours  for me,
when  you're the one getting rained on,

You walk in contradictions..

The sun  looks distraught,
therapy wont cool out its raised temper,
You say you'll block out the rays  for me,
but your skins peeling from being my sunblock,

What are you blocking if you're getting hit too?

Can you at least grow the tenacity to protect yourself
while you shelter me,
Yes, I remained covered under hot colors,
but suffer watching you sacrifice,
You are such a paradox,
bruised and beaten
with sounds of your breathing running out clocks,

I just wanted us both to be safe,
Through mixed skies, I took you for granted
Now you look old and fragile,
grappling with the forecasts
while my grips felt like strangles,

Not much life in you anymore
and those weather losses turn to mourns,
mopes drip like the tears from eyes of storms  
I HANDLED you wrong,

A Capricorn diagnosed with Cancer,
the pain of love sits in its symptoms
her hurts worth eating through my system

-Shahrukh Zamir c)2014

We began as two lost souls floating in the air,
unwarily aware waiting to be united,
who could or would ever stop to think,
that I’d be the one to spend your entire life with,

A beautiful piece of flesh, heaven scented
God graced with a beauty that sparked,
strings on her eyelashes reciting melodies
to which became the song to our hearts,

She polishes my skin with her cottoned touch,
Drenched in delicacy ,softened with lost love,
Our lips bonded together like street riots,
echoing strong yet calm enough to seal my lips quiet,

Our eyes gaze ever last without once becoming sore,
I am not the man of your dreams wishing woman,
Yet you’re everything I dream t for,

And you know that I know that you know,
that I know that we both know this is true,
by the looks of you I fear your expectations
I lie down asking myself what I can offer you,

What would someone with so much soul and prestige
be doing loving and spending her whole life with me,
In all honestly, my life with you I visualized it,
God sent you here for me, the feeling I can't describe it,

Waves splash of matched personalities,
we dived and drowned in the ocean of chemistry,
your clutched hands rubber band my destiny,
cliche it seems, yet I truly believe that you were meant for me,

I daydream about you while typing Z's in my speech bubble,
wondrous, anxious, joyful, for we fit in place like a perfect puzzle,
imperfect I lie, yet perfect through your eyes to see,
eager to share with you my love that's deeper than eternity,

Deaf to knowing inside your heart is where our future lied,
a God gifted life from the skies who was made to be my wife ,
my burning heart lit with love for that only yearns for she,
eternally knowing that her loves shared with no one but me.

-Shahrukh Zamir c)2013

You sink my heart down the ocean floors
underwater it breathes, yet its lungs are sore
you try syncing beats, hearts too torn to ever be restored
I see grays of its gravestone floating along  the shore

You make my moods cloud in sorrow
no lighting could brighten up this smile
like roars of thunder you watch me rolling deep
no tickles could uppercuts these weeps

You tear the smoothness in my skin away
from those rabbit glares and the silly tricks you play
our spirits were once willing now refuse to mesh
oh carnivorous woman just eat my rotten flesh

Your beginnings made this person drenched in laundry
with heated arms that sheltered warmly
now I am nothing less of a battered igloo
with a runny nose  too slow to catch a tissue.

-Shahrukh Zamir c)2013

You have been hiding somewhere in my mind
still seeking but promise ill find you in time
no words of beauty could truly define
the deliciousness that's enriched in someone your kind

You have been hiding somewhere in my mind
still seeking but promise ill find you in time
in this journey alone these trails whisper and kindly remind
me of what love is if we aren't combined

You have been hiding somewhere in my mind
still seeking but promise ill find you in time
lurking and urgings while searching for sign
Lord, only If i could see and read between these lines

You have been hiding somewhere in my mind
still seeking but promise ill find you in time
I might lose my soul but til this world declines
solemnly swear, won't dissappear until i make you mine

-Shahrukh Zamir c) 2013

Today the sun wore shades and batted its eyes
and blocked me from out of its sight
polygraphed my senses searching for truth in silver linings
only to find that beneath me lied the sky

I'm Forgotten..
why do I feel so forgotten?..

The people I had touched but the felt is intangible
and price tag my life retail worth is invaluable
and those cold shoulders felt like blizzards
with cuts that drowned me deep in clouds of scissors

I'm Forgotten..
why do I feel so forgotten?..

I'm the past lives  burnt in bonfires
they  threw matches and poured ashes, deceiving subtract liars
I am as lonesome as a single leaf  dwelling  rain forests
mislead in ways to guidance  like new city tourists

I'm Forgotten..
why do I feel so forgotten?..

Like unseen 'time that wrinkles in hour glass
with the flesh skin of elderly like hours never passed
I brought fortune to future than any number in dollar signs
but they bounced  away like a checks that declined

I'm Forgotten..
why do I feel so forgotten?..

-Shahrukh Zamir c)2013

A driven mind green lighting on a E tank,
with a vision blind digging til tunnels light,
I stay looking puzzled trying assemble the puzzle right,
pieces of struggle to ease me peace, heard the hustle nice,

Been a grinder from the start,
mama said that finish has no limits,
because its a constant growth to blossom roads
keep pedaling even though we stomped up roses
learning to climb up through our broken vines
blooming away til we illuminate and shine.

Lightning strikes while the  thunder roars
sore spines from downfalls trying stand tall,
make it rain let it pour,
til we reign still we poor,
just bucketful of check lists,
starving to get checking off  our goals,
make my life a billion dollar movie beginning off a dollar roll,
when I illuminate...

I've been encouraged by  hardship,
that kept me floating on thin waters,
seen the deep end  turn dreams shallow,
but I dove in, cant swim, no boats and no paddles,  
no  native language, light cash and heavy battles,
single queen one brother lost father and no castle
trying to illuminate...

You know...
It seemed cupids just aren't shooting arrows no more,
And graveyards  feel like them 9-5 that moms working,
Heavy luggage, to much carry inside her designer bagged eyes,
but she a zombie, her whole life on board to touch skies,
God, how she still flying the whirlwind?
Mr. Garvy..Ive been trying to soak it in...

In my heart til it lose its beating
I am in hopes to beat the odds,
I know mama been working hard,
20 years grinding,
Foots cracking off  of 3 jobs,
I remember all  those sobs off the things that we saw,
With those that born with  it all,  
Felt like our lives  being robbed,
But you showed  me not to just aim for the stars,
But keep rising til it heighten close enough to touch God,
and before dying off of energy, its best to stay charged,
So with  you fueling up my flames
How am I going to burnout against these logs,

You know..
They say it lonely it at top,
so my future often visits,
but it never comes to stop
flashes quicker before I write up its speeding tickets,
but its all fine.... it'll pays it fine
one day...when we illuminate..

Its like staring at bidders looking bitter,
like life's problems don't with auction,
with  prices over our heads,
til death closes us in a coffins,
til inhaler keep me  brother breathing,
failure is not an option,
through pain and time calm less
we make change out of nonsense

When we illuminate...

-Shahrukh Zamir c)2014