They told me to me to write
So I can drag out those feelings
That was left unexpressed
If those words came to light
Then it would feel less depressing
And my life would not be a mess
I have spoken my truth
And filled those words in paper
Of all those bottled emotions
Inside was a story of me and you
About love, sadness and anger
And how it became lesson
I was willing to sacrifice
Your needs over my own
Just so you could be happy
In the end you cut our ties
You left me drowning alone
And killed what is left of me

I always wondered
What is the purpose?
All the written words
An expression of oneself
On a piece of paper
Dotted in black ink
Which makes me feel better
But if often leaves me wondering
What is the purpose?
Maybe a collection of memories
Of what once was
Something important for me
Maybe I know the actual purpose
It is a place for me to heal
No more wearing any mask
And express what I truly feel

How do I say I love you?
When everything is at stake
How can someone be true?
Knowing it could bring heartache
How to get rid of this fear?
Thinking rejection is on its way
How can I say I love you?
Not knowing if you would say it back

As I grow old
How excited I was for freedom
Finally walking out the door
As I grow old
I bid farewell to my friends
As we took our own course
As I grow old
I have met new people
That were quite different
As I grow old
I fell in love with a girl
But got my heart broken
As I grow old
The people I used to know
Turned into another stranger
As I grow old
I am used to being alone
Without care from any other

It happens almost every night
Especially when I am alone
This battle I am having inside
Is slowly ripping apart my soul
I lay in bed but I am wide awake
Trying my best to fall asleep
But the problem is this heartache
That I could feel in so deep
I try to calm myself down
But I still have this struggle
When no one is around
Is the beginning of my battle