I always wondered
What is the purpose?
All the written words
An expression of oneself
On a piece of paper
Dotted in black ink
Which makes me feel better
But if often leaves me wondering
What is the purpose?
Maybe a collection of memories
Of what once was
Something important for me
Maybe I know the actual purpose
It is a place for me to heal
No more wearing any mask
And express what I truly feel

How do I say I love you?
When everything is at stake
How can someone be true?
Knowing it could bring heartache
How to get rid of this fear?
Thinking rejection is on its way
How can I say I love you?
Not knowing if you would say it back

As I grow old
How excited I was for freedom
Finally walking out the door
As I grow old
I bid farewell to my friends
As we took our own course
As I grow old
I have met new people
That were quite different
As I grow old
I fell in love with a girl
But got my heart broken
As I grow old
The people I used to know
Turned into another stranger
As I grow old
I am used to being alone
Without care from any other

It happens almost every night
Especially when I am alone
This battle I am having inside
Is slowly ripping apart my soul
I lay in bed but I am wide awake
Trying my best to fall asleep
But the problem is this heartache
That I could feel in so deep
I try to calm myself down
But I still have this struggle
When no one is around
Is the beginning of my battle

Am I your play thing?
An object for entertainment?
When you have nothing
That brings you any amusement?
You call only when you need
But when you are happy
You packed your bags and leave
Without thinking about me
Left me out in the cold
Making me blame myself
Tormenting my own soul
Thinking I am not worthy of love

If only it was easy to say how you feel
Without worrying about the consequences
For these words that I have yield
Would make or break both our bridges
I have been lying to my own dear heart
That I am not a man in love
But these lies are tearing me apart
As I know what we are now is not enough
Would you fear for what I have to say?
If I came down and ask for your hand?
That I am yours until the end of days
If you are willing to accept this man
For his heart has never shifted
The moment he laid his eyes on you
I promise this time it would not hurt
For this love I promise you is true