as the day fades away
i lie in bed and think
i think of all that we could be
and all that we aren't
i take my phone to text you
but i stop myself
because you don't want me
and you won't talk to me
you hurt me.

that feeling when you
blast music,
headphones in your ears.
that feeling when you
finally order that
subway sandwich,
all on your own.
that feeling when you
pass that test
or
talk to your crush
or even when you
are feeling really great
about yourself.
that feeling is magic,
when you feel it
you hold on to it tight
because it is so rare
to feel anything
similar to it.
and it is so easy
for someone to rip it away.
don't let anyone
take that from you.
you earned it.