"So" the girl in the mirror says, tilting her head at me,
"It seems we've learned something"

If you don't want to look beyond your bubble, you won't see at all
If you want to be in pain, your eyes will start to ache
If you want to wade in darkness, the ugly will fill your sight
If you want only to believe in good, the beauty will blind you

And if you want to see the truth?
Then you open your eyes to everything
And even if you don't like it, you will see what you seek

"So it seems we've learned something" the girl in the mirror sighs,
"You poor, pretty, broken soul
It seems you finally know
You're all beautiful, ugly, hurt and scarred
You are all all of these and you are nothing"

We are nothing other than what we choose to be
So it seems I've learned that we will see what we seek

**I choose to see you as who you are, and not as who I want you to be

Sometimes I wonder

if I even survived
my childhood.

Maybe some part of me
is sleeping
up on the hill.

One of those
Nightmares
That I couldn't escape
Carried me off
In its jaws

and so maybe
I am planted.
Looking down
At all the people
I can't remember.

I hope that I am ashes.
I never wanted a stone.

Not black but a fading grey
A low perspective
I see as a child
Only in colours
And my own vocabulary
And with only my tone
I talk to the world
And it talks back while it twirls
And I'm back to just being a little girl
With the soft air holding my hand
Walking me through
Talking me through
Because I'm still scared of being alone
I need you
And i'm skipping but i just don't show it
And Im laughing but my mouth fails to move
Fails to do
Anything
Because i lost the world
I lost the air
And i lost you