I walk into the well known abyss
The hole with no limits
As I panic under the sun
Of its beaming temptation
In my small black hole
Of fixation

Yea.... Look.....
              Every lesson i learned burned me till it stuck in an hurt
Started out as a kid searchin for the place i fit in
Saw broken souls young and old   healed what i could, learned how it worked livin in sin
started playin games as a  way to train for a life in the game
Till one day an O.G showed me a mans brain splatered like rain on a dark night one may.

Keep it real..
dont just act like steal...
If you sayin that you down,
Better be ready for the **** that comes around.
Bluffin gets real thugs stuffin trunks with punks an fools that squeel
So you better know how down you is for real

Beatin ******* *** in class for trash talkin my broke *******
White trash on welfare and food stamps
Only ever held stolen cash, only ever busted stolen gats
But i seen a mansion and now i got all that.
**** lessons and tests, group discussions and packets
Im brillintly crimanaly insane and intend to be a **** so i stay  underground straight
Ima live till i wanna die, words only boss ****** get to live by
One shot 2 shot, im hit, your fine, ima live, you gon die.
Cant **** what you cant match in pride
Watch what you fly round me i roll unstraped Take no crap and **** all you mother ****** scraps.
Hope you like my rap dont talk crap.

Clip full to the max and one in the chamber,
No fears can't stop a solder who's ready for danger,
rather fight with bare knuckles than wast bullets on suckers.
Mother ******* under estimate me cuz I'm white.
But see i fight big dudes like 6 foot 2 without a crew,
I'm 5'6 and skinny but still takin every hit like a man and winning!
Walking tall, back to my enemy's after every brawl,
Like If you wanna hit me from the back "ok", that's cool, be a punk, and think your bad.
I don't do **** unless I'm starin at your face.
I don't even bust my gat without steppin out my ride and gettin my target in sight.
Don't underestimate me cuz of my size or baby blue eyes,
I was raised by killers, drug dealers, and fiends. caught my first felony case at 14 and did 2 almoast 3 years in a box under lock and key!
Apon my release I kept my face muggin mean and nobody in this new town messed with me!
Police gave a warning sayin, " we got a gangster with a violent history"!!
No chance for me to explain my being,
Labeled for my violent felonies.
the sight of me drove fear into my peers And attracted fine honeys.
Each looking to put their claim on me,
but I keept it OG. and gave em all a taste of me.
It was shortly thereafter that a bad crowd found me.
Crowned me a bad *** and treated me like a king!!
Looking to me to act boldly and disregard authority.
I needed no prompting to put a ******* up proudly, where everybody could see my defiance speaking loudly.
I love the lack of ****'s I give, I'm a piece criminal and say it proudly.
Im still one to fear but the closest of peers adore me for my risk taking and back having.
One face for all to see, my attitude of **** all you equally!!
A nice guy when you take the time to get to know me.
But I appreciate the fear I instill in strangers who steer clear of me.
I'm the same as I was long before I met anybody I know now!!
I just grew 2 feet and made my voice loud so I could lead a crowd, or pick a fight with the whole **** town!!
There's no changin the true me inside, even if now a days I've tried to stay away from drama and trouble.
I'll still ****, I'm still down for a bare knuckle rumble in the streets. I still do steel to eat, Rob houses and cars for money, do drugs and sell em to.
Only thing holding me back from screamin at police while I attack em and strip em of they badge, is a woman I found that grounded me.
Gave my delinquent mind clarity and gave me my first taste of love, truer than I've ever had as a ****
She respects every aspect of my past and only asks that I keep in check,
so I can stay around make a check and and bless every breath she has left.
So I do my best and respect the limits she sets.
Never over stepping her wishes unless I know the situation best,
and know for a fact that my actions will bring less regret.
But regardless of the love I hold or the wishes she bestowes Im still a gangster throwing up 1-4, wearing red and repin as a Norteno, cuz my stripes are big I did men's work as a kid, and took beatings like they didn't happen when theyes did
I been strapin myself since 11 when I stole a little 22 from up under the mattress of my uncles friend ben.
I used it a lot! Used to bring it to school.
never showed it off cuz the point wasn't to be cool.
i had it with the intentions of smokin a fool!
now I'm 18 and I've slowed slightly,
but don't think that just cuz I'm treating you nicely that I won't **** you with a dull knife and stick around to watch you slip into nice sleep!
Point being I'll treat you with what respect you deserve but cross me an ima eat your ******. Soul for desert!!!!

My love has lost her way, I have been blind to her pain.
My promise to keep her happy and safe slowly  changed!
In the first days of our new love I had yet to change.
I was still the young man she saw as mysterious and brave.
I didn't try to make her smile, when our eyes meet her face brightened naturally.
This girl was not one to spend many days happily, but I brought clarity to her life.
I was her armor, the razor sharp blade that protected her frugal life.
We needed no words to make official our love, it was seen in our eyes and felt in every hug.
As time passed by i became blind to what she needed in life.
I tried my hardest to ask and gave gifts to show my love.
And she drifted further from my arms, quietly suffering, waiting for me to understand.
She needs no gifts to live happily with the her truest love.
My eyes should open and see what her hearts wish.
Without a word or question I should do as she silently asks.
But the blinds closed slowly day by day.
I've hurt the only love I've ever known in my life and to realize such brings a pain worse than a piercing knife to the chest.
I love her to death and strongly regret my blind eye.
I miss what it was like in our first few nights.
Our unspoken affection visible in the darkest night.
The simple touch of our hands made sparks fly.
So I apologize, for I was for a long time blind.
But as I gaze Apon my love is see again why I never asked but deep inside knew she was forever mine.
I stand as your blanket of warmth and shield against war.
I am tattered and worn but I yearn to see again where my first love began.

I love you my best friend till the end, my first and only love forever through everything,my monkey I sit and watch swing from trees gracefully. And my partner in crime till the end of time you one **** dime even when the police is giving you a ride

Miles to go,
Walking in the blistering cold,
All alone wearin  summer clothes
Pitch black night and I'm 6 years old.
My shoes got holes on the soles and toes,
The sun was bright when I left home but it's gone.
Haven't had a drink or bite to eat for at least a week.

No stoppin till I find warmth,
I figured if I went north I'd run into a store,
Now I'm lost and cold, where the **** Did my mother Go?

She took off and left me alone,
Said she'd be right back but I guess she forgot.
I am her only child so I can understand.
Maby if I had a brother or sister she would have rembered to come back.

Flat fields on both sides and mountains far of in the sight.
I haven't seen a car since my mom left that night.
I just hope someone drives by and gives this scraggly kid a ride.

I tried to wait but I ate both the cup a noodles and drank all the water the first night.
3 days in I was delirious and could barely stand.
A 2 pack of crackers and some snow is what helped me stand.

**** it I'm young enough to say the world is corrupt with every right to believe it.
Finely the police show up and take me to my grandpas.
Thank God it's warm and he feeds us.

**** I love bein hated,
Havin strangers believein rumors that fear has created.
I been told I'm a demon that Satin rejected,
I seem to be evil, I speak truth to the people and only sinners except it.
**** the perception my demeanor gives to stuck  up people with riches.
I'm proudly pour and dreamin of potent drinks on foreign beaches.
Next to my love giving stolen money the ones who need it.
I'm considered conceded cuz I want to be left to live without bothersome police and ****.
I belive the only laws needed are simple and don't need repeated.
The government has long past there leashes.
Over stepped the bounds of what originally freed us.
Now greedy people lead us for there benefits.
No leader in the US cares about the little people working to keep us relevant in the world
I hope every person on planet earth thinks I'm a anarchist, a cult leader and a criminal that is here to hurt us.
Cuz truthfully I'm here to end the world's governments. So everyone can figure out what peace is in the purest form of how individuals see it!!

I am anti-social,
I choke at social gatherings,
My breath feels nothing more than lies ,
The lies when people's words,
Sublime into air.

While everyone brags about,
The last time the Sapiens
Had a good time,
I comfortablly drift off,
Into my little Pluto,
Of words, poetry and music.

I am there,
Yet I am not there.

People think I'm a snob,
The Sapiens think I'm lazy,
But what do they know,
The happiness in solitude.

I am anti social,
And the last thing,
I could care about,
Is You.

Deep dark corners of iminagation, responsible for child hood hallucinations don't disappear in the later years

Late nights without sleep till daylight play on the mind and set reality aside giving way to paranoia to well up inside.

First its simple and explainable but worsens with time, a point comes when fear proves to be alive only sinking you deeper inside

As the devil stands over you watching in plain sight, you try to force yourself outside but terror keeps you frozen in time.

But talking to the shadows satin left behind  to keep a close eye on every move you  may try, eases the tension cuz someone finally sticks around ournd for conversation.

If you haven't taken rest by day five the world a group of spies trying to ruin your life. Arrest you without a chance of ever seeing light

After 6 strung out nights reality is a dream and puppy's can fly, your wanted by the FBI, every move you make is another surprise.

In less than a week you can suddenly be a different take on yourself, a person with 6 different names, each with a life and attitude completely different From the rest,
Impossible to talk to cuz very one of the people in your head wanna share there views