one drink, don't blink
spinning in circles to the rhythm of another's laughter
one step, a slip
the wall on my hand speaks in numbered tones
one lie, listen close
wondering how I will feel after . . .
a song, a friend
bloodshot eyes and a broken bone.

can every memory sound this crazy?
I hear you, but my recollection is hazy
can every night be this predictable?
touching the breeze as it slips through the window
I'm lazy, for a more journalistic approach
can't faze me; I'm too far and tied down.

one mind, three others
hoping, wishing for a meeting with brothers
a glass, almost empty
wasted away cause the night tips you uspdie-dwon
one single dream, an alarm to wake
reality defines and leaves to ache

instead of an armed attack: a small-minded runaway
think "break;" you'll never miss
ready for an action or two
I'm drowning in this pool    without you
abandoned with false intentions
misled by a graceful pretension
stuck in a coma, all efforts to break loose
felt like this a thousand times

When these words turn to songs and symphonies
and you're just a mental stain
you'll regret the way you treated me
and all the things you've said
I'm destined to do it big
and even if I don't
I deserve better and I'll get it, cutthroat

do you see it in me?
I don't care if you do
I've wasted so many days
wondering about you

so I'll close my laptop shut
and hustle through the night
I never believed in me
I never felt quite right

but the pain can be channeled in ways you don't realize
and the gain through it all will be my pretty prize

Let it flow, direct it, connect it, project it
don't let anyone else's opinion affect it
you're perfect, you're worth it, rebirth it
trade nothing on this planet earth for it
and then give it all back to the world, return it
got a bad thought? do what you can to deter it

You're meant for more than you're willing to tell
make sure you take care of yourself
only shower in hot water and affection
stop hanging yourself
on unreturned attention
if you're unsure about someone
focus on you for awhile
and when you're feeling at your lowest
force a brilliant smile
it will get better
as long as you leave bed
emotionally dead
but steady getting ahead

I don't have time for petty pursuits
And you've taught me that most people don't tell the truth
so my course of action
is the opposite of you

I'm so done with praising others
raising them above
with my love
a surrogate mother
the umbilical cord rots
knots block off outside approval
I've got the tools of the trade
for an at home removal

Take cover, take me with you
Words with actions unmatched
Take me under, take it away
I'll scream until the rise of a new sun
A flowing harmony retracts
Running around, blowing stacks
Spotting her under a different canopy
With eyes unknown
A smile at ease
Killing time to watch it drain away
Underground to childless brains
I'm right where you left me

how can you know?
it's merely a show
a sleepless night
three meters below the rising sun.
in the impact zone
I watch as you chase
a love out of your league
but time will erase
all memories with ease
stop by, if you please.
you're so vague, I struggle for words
to define our fate
maybe I'm catching a glimpse of
what looks just like bait,
so they can reel me in...
pull me under...
I'm a sucker for love and need to take cover
Don't let me go!
I need something to hold on to!
your careless affection
toomuchtotakein
I'm sleepless tonight.
Lying awake, drowned by anger and
sadness and fear
yet still wanting you here