I ******* love you and I wish I didnt
you only hurt me and I pretend not to see it
not to feel it
but it's the only thing I think of when I see you
you lie to me every time we have our druken nights
telling me you love me
if you love me why hurt me the way you do
are you afraid of commitment
are you really just using me
Why are you spending time with her more than you do with me
please don't leave me
i need you more than I want you

I think when I lost you
I lost myself
because I haven't felt the same ever since
And I miss you so much
But I know this feeling won't last forever
Why did you leave me here to die alone?

The days I am happy
There is nothing wrong
It is as white as a blank sheet of paper

The days I am sad
Are as dark as the winter nights
When you told me you loved me
And then called me just to say
"Baby you didn't mean a ******* thing"

You are like the moon
When everything is dark and lonely
That's when you shine the most

It's 3am and I'm wide awake
the thought of you has turned into a nightmare
now I can't feel anything , is this fake?
I sit and wonder if you even cared

The thing is you never even left
you are still here, body and soul
my heart is gone now, you are just a theft
so now there is just a empty hole

Your mind is somewhere I could never be
the lump in my throat trying not to burst
who do you stare at when you're kissing me?
you have always been my best an my worst

I thought I knew the real feeling of pain
Until I saw you look at her so vain

our conversations
our late night laughs
our secrets
the way we read each others mind
the way we knew what our favorite everything's were
the way we knew how we were feeling
we lost it all
but now you tell me if it was worth it
loosing our love for each other
now you pretend you don't see me
god , I know you're ******* dying to tell me something
anything
or is it just me?
have we lost our connection so quickly?
why do you pretend you don't see me
why do you pretend that the summer nights we had , drunk in our own tears never happened
why do you pretend like we never happened
because the night I went to the hospital you were all I could think about
on my verge to killing myself you were the one who saved me
don't tell me you don't care about anything cause you ******* cared about me