AND YOU NEVER KISSED MY SCARS,
YOU KISSED MY STRETCH MARKS FROM GROWING TOO FAST
AND ******* FOR NOT KNOWING THE DIFFERENCE

I THOUGHT I WOULD SLEEP TONIGHT
but my shaky hands keep on typing
and my eyes linger open
I wish i could get tangled up in blonde hair
(let me get sweaty and hot)
(let me get on top)

lead me on lead me on
you could crash the ******* car and I'd still be alright with not having my seat belt buckled
in hopes that maybe my lips would fly right into yours
you told me I had pretty eyes

But you're just too stressed at the moment
and "we'd be better as friends"
and "I know it's cliche,
but it's not you, it's me"

Look I know
that the voices in my mind make me sound crazy
hey let's go
it's just the voices in my mind makin' me hazy
Come on and show
me that you don't mind all these actions getting lazy
'cause I'm sitting on my couch scratching my arms and only wasting
away
been here a while and I still **** at getting you to like me
I'm sinking down I ******* **** at getting you to touch me
******* I seem to **** so much that all I don't is ****
and I've just been daydreaming that maybe you and I will stick
not like the last one, I hope you still don't think about her
my self-worth goes down the drain when she's brought up, whenever
I've got no problem with her lips except I think they're plumper
and I'm pretty sure they still wish they had your tongue all wrapped around her
I'm insecure, there's no other way to ******* say it
life is blunt, but don't pass me one, I've always known I can't ******* take it
repeating words repeating thoughts repeats everything that comes undone
unraveled and unsettling like the feeling of a setting sun

am i just another girl
photo-copied into your life, like the last one that still begs for you?
please talk to me anyway
please kiss me anyway
please let me believe that you won't lie to me when you say
you don't think of her anymore

sometimes I hope you break my heart
you'd never fade
(but give us a while, I'm hoping you're more than a few pages in my life)

I know you're sad sometimes and it scares me
because I know what sad feels like
and I know I might not make you happy

I hope you see it in my eyes,
the way I look at you
and I hope I'm not imagining it
when I sometimes think
I see it in yours