there's so many things i wanna tell you
but too little words to explain
there's too little words that came out of my mouth
and too many thoughts stuck on my brain

I’m tired,
tired of trying to fit into a world,
that doesn’t seem to want me in it.
I promise you I’m trying.
Yet, everyday when I wake up it seems to get harder and harder.
My body is giving up,
It was slow at first and now it’s all at once,
like drizzling that is now a hurricane.
My lungs refuse to breathe,
Arms refuse to reach for the bottles that supposedly keep me sane,
Heart refuses to accept love,
I’m tired.

If life was an Etch-a-Sketch
Hard memories could be quickly erased
Backgrounds replaced with -
mountain vistas , gulf waters-
blue lakes , whirling snowflakes-
Cherry trees and sweet dreams ...

613 200 Hours
25 550 Days
13 Cars
11 Jobs
9 Dogs
6 Surgeries
5 Children
4 Grandchildren
3 Marriages
2 Siblings
1 Weary soul.
No regrets.

Have you considered what will be your
first words when you are going to meet me?
So many right one to choose.

I know your answer now and it is perfect:
Never leave you alone my love.

So I will never leave you also.

I am curious about your eyes.
And eyebrows. I want draw their
shape with finger.
Look on you for a long time.
Think about what you think.
Watch your eyes.
To know I am yours and you are mine.
Forever.