Chilly Autumn days
bring harsh winter winds
but the Roses still grow
in greenhouses

The greenhouse, a garden
grows Roses for the lucky lovers
In the dead middle of winter
just to come back two months later

As the Rosebud trembles
with each passing
it blooms and falls
to the hands of the deserving

but it ****** in self defense
much like the love
we all thought we'd cherish

Although our memories are dead,
The ghost of the past will forever haunt me

I meander through time
And space
Upon my aching feet
And of everything i stand for,
At least I stood

I want a Number One
I wish for someone
I can’t stifle this heartless desire
And quell this fire

I want to be a best friend, a boyfriend
I wish you’d love yourself even if it ends
I tried melting your heart
But it really is a complex body part

You wanted left alone
You wished someone would throw you a bone
You wouldn’t let me in
So I started to get bad again

You desperately wanted attention
You wished for love and correction
You wanted a Number One
Yet we were blinded by the sun

I don’t know what it is about her
I do know I think I love her
I want to hold her
I want to protect her

It is selfish
But I know I am a bit of a shellfish
Always crawling back into my house
The scare little mouse
I am

But no matter what I do
I can’t seem to convince you
I won’t make you blue
I wish you’d get the clue

I was in utter disbelief
But also I felt relief

You shared the same feelings
Like me

I can feel your heart beating inside my rib cage
and the beating of your heart is causing internal bleeding
It beats
it thumps
It spews out blood
and now I'm drowning in it

I see you in the trees
I hear your voice in the breeze
I feel your presence when i eat your favourite ice cream
I smell your hair when i lay face first into our pillow
I hear your voice in the videos we made
So tell me why i miss you so much
When you're right here in my heart,
The only place you can be