every time i try to fix something
i either make it worse
or create a different mess
i dont know if its me
or the world
but something isnt right

The pain that hurts the most is when your smiling to keep the tears from flowing uncontrollably.

everything i touch
everywhere i go
everything i do
i ruin it all.

that one moment
you wish you could take back
that moment you hurt the person
that cares about you
more than anything.
i wish i could
have that moment back.

people always tell
you that you should be
optimistic. never yell;
wait and see;

good things come
to those who wait;
you are only dumb
if you do nothing but hate.

cliches we've all heard
that are supposed to make
us feel better. the words
that are supposedly "all it takes".

but positive thinking leads you on
and can only result in
disappointment. gone
are the days where optimism wins.

it's easy to tell yourself
that you don't need something
or someone.
it's hard to actually believe
that you don't.

it's pretty ironic how you
call it a crush
i used to think it was due
to that feeling you get, the rush.

when just thinking of him makes
you blush and feel
butterflies. you dream of him and it takes
waking up to remember he is actually real.

hearing his name
can make you smile
like nothing else. trying to tame
that feeling will take a while.

when he sees you and gives a smile and wave,
you feel extremely happy.
and that moment you will save,
despite it being sappy.

but then you see him one day
with somebody new.
he looks at her in the way
that you wish he looked at you.

you turn away because you can't bear to watch the rest,
and you swear you heard
your heart being smashed to pieces in your chest
and you realize that crush is the right word.