it’s hard when you realize
that you are the one
secluding yourself
and pushing your own back against the wall.

that you could have everything
if only you would reach out
and grab it
but for some reason you can’t.

no amount of logic
can change it.
you recognize the self sabotage
and continue betraying yourself.

you want to scream and cry
and tell yourself to stop.
but you can’t move on the outside.
you’re completely numb.

i look at you
and i know you what you want me to see.
you want me to think
you’re extremely happy
and better now than ever.

but that’s not what i see.
i see what’s really there.
you’re still living in your own shadow.
i hope one day
you find your way out of the darkness.

when you didn’t stop me
when i started walking away
from you and out of your life

when i finally had enough
and decided to leave
and you let me

when i had tears in my eyes
at the thought of the end
and you turned your head

when it broke my heart
walking away from you
and you didn’t follow

that’s when i realized
i was making the right choice
leaving you behind.