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I looked at the clock and it was 11:11
but then it switched to 11:12
and I missed my chance of wishing
that you were here.
  Jan 2017 Rachna Beegun
Kewayne Wadley
You've crossed my mind many nights.
Sometimes I just lay there, holding you tight in mind.
Wandering your body with my hands.
Filling my fingers with the skin I've dreamt so much about.
The things you keep hidden. unraveled in empty sheets, blankets.
Your warmth becoming the only comforter that dictates whether or not I'll have sweet dreams.
What justifies the stain our breath has left on one another's.
The press of your face against my neck.
The marks left on each other in anticipation. Refusing to pull ourselves away.
Clinging tight to the ****** of being beside ourselves.
Deliberately keeping each other awake in the promise of sleeping wild moments later.
To watch your face scrunch up as it breaks your gasp. Bringing a halt to anticipation,
The comfort of bodies becoming pillows harboring us into a deep sleep. Soft, still.
My head laying on your shoulder.
As we ourselves become lost in the sheets
I look back to that period
of innocence
and deplore its brevity.

I recall when
we bathed ourselves
beneath the fountain of youth
and I believed
that our love would never die.

Was it a lie,
or just unspoken truth?

Every breath I took
brought me closer to you.
But it was not enough.
Why could I not understand
that all I lacked
was the recognition
that there was nothing
I needed
that I didn’t  already have?

It is a lifelong pattern.
A concern over what I might be missing
has always spoiled my
enjoyment
of what I already possess.

And while we continue
to blame others
for our own shortcomings,
we fail to recognise that
a voyage on
the vessel of forgiveness,
must begin with  forgiving oneself.

We have freedom of choice,
but apparently
we prefer to choose regret
rather than happiness.

All things are dust,
and to dust all things return
is a biblical pronouncement.
But while we may rail
against the losses and perils
of our existence
it is too easy to forget that
the bough may have broken,
but the tree still stands.
  Jan 2017 Rachna Beegun
S Smoothie
Rivers of thought flow bringing shimmering distorted reflections of you
Memories lap at the shores of my heart
pictures of warmth and beauty dazzle dancing in the bright sunlight
what adventures we had
wild and carefree collecting careless memories
echoes of laughter still tickle my soul
the smile of a thousand smiles soaking me with contagious joy
what youth and innocence could do back then,
free and generous that's what we were
living off love's air
we thought it would last forever
that growing old was matter of refusing the heart for a number
that we swore it would always be this way
radio waves playing our songs over the air
Both living in one beautiful frequency
we were so young then
remember you cried and I laughed?
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