I'm in love with my best friend.
not the sister type of love.
the love where I want her in my bed.
I want to be in the most intimate parts of her life.
I've seen her hurt so many times before,
I just want to be the one to make it right.
how do I deal with this?
where do I go from here?
thank god she's far away,
bc it would be a done deal if she was here.
I'm trying to forget these feelings.
trying to push them aside
but is it healthy to keep this all inside?

but I feel like **** for feeling this way bc we'll never be more than friends.
I'm way in over my head for thinking something can change.
it's funny bc I'm taken and I feel this way.
isn't it strange
that I would leave the current one
just to be with her.
she doesn't understand.
she doesn't feel the same way,
so I keep my mouth close everyday

why did I even put myself in this position?
someone is going to be hurt in the end.
it's probably going to be me bc I'm in love with my straight best friend.