April Ariane Magdua

April Ariane Magdua Aug 2019

I see you everyday.
And you remind me how unworthy I am.
Your eyes look at mine telling me I'm not enough.
But I still choose to stay.

April Ariane Magdua Aug 2019

....

I am tired to be your sometimes.
I want to be your always and forever.
Love me in my weakest,
Not just when I'm available to satisfy your needs.
Make me feel loved when I am alone and lonely,
Not just when it's convenient to you.
Be there for me for always,
Not just when she's not into you.

April Ariane Magdua Aug 2019

Hundred to One

You're giving me
hundred reasons to leave,

But I'm always able to find
one reason to stay.

April Ariane Magdua Aug 2019

It's All in the Eyes

Your lips can lie and hide the pain,

But your eyes can't.

Aug 2019

Lost Soul

I'm not Sorry

I guess you want me to say I'm sorry
But I cant...
You hurt me, put a bullet in my heart
Like I was an animal in a safari
I needed you...you left..said it was cause of something i lacked
I'm fixing myself, no thanks to you
And now you want me back?
I'm not the same as before
You were fine knowing that I was hurting
I had to pick myself up
Harden my heart
now I'm as cold as a stone floor
I loved you but I guess you didn't love me
I'm no longer sorry I did the things i did
I'm not sorry i gave up
Just like you did with me....

#sorry #gaveup #love #relationship #breakup #selfhate #parents

April Ariane Magdua Aug 2019

Perfume and Sweat

I miss your smell.
I miss the way I bury my face in your chest
and sniff you.
The way I close my eyes and try to memorize
the mixed smell of your perfume and your sweat.
I miss the way you get sweetly-angry and smile
when I try to smell your armpit.
I miss the way I am with you.
The way my heart ponder while I tightly
wrapped my arms around you.

April Ariane Magdua Aug 2019

I exist.

I also exist when
you're not
bored,
lonely,
or *****.