Tension coils around
struggling sinews of muscles
strain to break free
resist
the oncoming panic
beads of sweat
drip down an already burning forehead
body flinches from ******
needles upon the skin
tanned and burning
starving for air
and reprieve
you are leaving me
and the fear
has crawled it's way through
the back of my mind
can only think of you
and perpetuate this fear
climbing up my spine
and into my every thought
is the disease of your imminent absence
going to **** me
suffocating on the thin air
that refuses to enter my lungs
gasping and immobile
I ponder your body
I rest my thoughts upon your neck
and breathe in your sweet scent
never again
will I melt into your green eyes
that calm every worry in my soul
your life is a mountain
swept into the sea by words
commanding me to collapse
to relinquish it all
would be to finally rest
the raucous vibrations of my thoughts
plague my mind daily with their evil
preventing me from being close to you
to stand alongside you
to share the same earth
I would do anything
to be your shadow
the paranoia hammers down
my casket
is sealed tight as
my fate
has been written long ago
I have been destined to despair
the life I live
you are leaving me.