Wake and do
As you’ve always done
As you will always do
Forever.
Promise after promise,
Beg yourself to be clean,
But you know you’re stuck.
Wake and clean,
Wake and obey,
Wake and bake.
Wake and take
Just one or two.
Wait for the fade out
As it kicks in.
You can try to feel pristine
Live for diamorphine
Ecstasy or caffeine
Numb from the routine.
The dirty truth is that
No drug erases life
Without bringing death.
Wake and panic,
Wake and shake,
Wake and need,
Wake with pain.
You don’t want to feel again.
Pick up the bottle
Glass, plastic childproof cap.
Pick up the needle
You need to feel normal.
But you’re stuck
Somewhere in between.