One minute I'm joyous the next I'm ****** but what I've learned is that happiness makes the knot the knot that makes the pain the pain that hides the scars the scars that shape your perception of yourself of life.
The scars that appear on your wrist because with every cut you think maybe it will help this time but no it will never help it will just push you down down to where the real emotions hide the emotions that one mustn't speak of the ones that can cause pain or anguish sadness or depression shock and loneliness
When I flip it makes you sad because you think its you when its really me and you ask what can I do even though the only thing that can be done is wait
Wait like there's no tomorrow because nothing else matters and its all you can do but waiting is all that can be done for only time will tell if my emotions will flip but when I do flip you feel happy for me and I feel gladness for I do not care for happiness for it has become a pain a pain I don't wish to suffer a pain of which no one should suffer alone for true happiness takes many forms but the most common form is in you life everyday love.
Love can cause grief or pain or even depression but more so than not it reveals the pain its brings us together it makes us feel like we belong because we do belong
When we love someone or something we respect them we respect them as if they could crumble at the slightest touch we respect them like there is no one else but most of all we respect our selves we respect ourselves so that we look good to whom we love we no longer feel the urge to cut slicing open flesh has become a source of depression a source of what shouldn't matter a source of the past, the painful past we respect ourselves so that our scares from the past will shine shine like the holiness of god act like there is no brighter light come forth with the pain we no longer need to hide shine like it no longer matters.
They no longer are a sign of weakness but a sign of power of self control of remembrance to show pain that has left us its a past that can no longer torment us these scars of battle stay with you for as long as you need them then when you've moved on and don't need the extra confidence they just seem to disappear like they were never there you no longer are self conscience about showing your scars for they show your bravery in battle the battle against humanity against the pain of depression
You must remember that we all have bad days and just because today was bad does not mean you need to make it worse make it worse by cutting or inflict self harm in any way you need to find someone to talk to the only way things will get better is if you take the day by the horns hold it and stare it down stare it down till it can no longer be a threat but you must remember I'm not in control because on minute ill be down in the dumps but the I might see you and instantly I'm the luckiest happiest dumbest looking person alive.