I've always wondered What could have happened if I stayed? Sometimes I imagine That maybe the life I always wanted Was a life where I'd always be snuggled in your embrace I wonder what could have happened if I turned around If I'd made that one last glance back at you Before fully walking out of the life we had In every hour, in every second of everyday I'd vividly visualize what emotion your face would've given me And each time I do, all the feelings come back I feel your warmth like a fire long extinguished And I freeze to the brink of death Frozen, but not enough to die Certainly not enough to live And so, Cruelly, to satisfy myself I decided to accept your invitation to come over I knocked on your door again Thrice, like I always had The sound my peaceful fist made knocking on your door Made me think about all the times I heard you do the same on mine It made me think how much I wanted to rush to the door, open it and smell your scent It made me think about how much I want to see you But then a stranger all dressed in white opened your door He saw my sleepless eyes And smiled at me Like he knew who I was And it made me think how much I regretted leaving And painfully regretted coming back