why am i so afraid so stupid so unconventional so depressed so hopeful so cut off so open so worried so trusting so afraid afraid afraid terrified of every **** thing every ******* thing unsure unwilling to give myself impulsive inclined to give everything pulling back at the last second he offered me forever and i ran away the truth hurts hurts hurts i am afraid so very afraid to make a promise for i fear it will be broken before it's made this is my truth i throw myself into the mess and rip myself out to hide tattered in a corner i don't want to be broken broken broken because it hurts more to put yourself back together than to fall apart understand understand understand this is my confession i will run if you give me a chance i will run if you ever decide to try try try with me don't let me run i know you don't want me no one really ever has and i hold the blame but if you try don't let me run hold hold hold me close and i will hold you please listen to me for this is a truth you must know i will hurt you before you hurt me because that's how i've learned to survive survive survive don't let me break you break myself if you give me a try don't let me leave after one night show me it's okay safe to stay *stay stay