Present Day is like a defibrillator in action the hole in my heart supposed to be filled, but the "filling" started to hurt from the Constant Letdown, My value, My worth
So I decided to remove the hurt exposing the hole watching a flood of pain, anger, frustration, peace, patience, rationality gush out.
And then there was nothing: zero reaction or expression no rise or fall no sound or beat. And the brain didn't care