here was something addictive about still pretending to be in love with you. It’s like the quotes and sad music started to become a part of me. But, after months of you leaving, I realise I’m not in love with you, I was just in love with the thought of still holding onto you.” -I don’t know why I romanticised about you leaving me behind. (you-were-my-forever)
Again, not from me but it explains so much. (P.s.- Montgomery don't talk about my poems except on here please. It's private.)