I ordered this thing called a "****** Doll." It's made of this tough. durable fabric and you're supposed to take this rag doll looking thing and bang it against the wall when you're mad. I've tried but I don't think it works for me. So i consider the brutal sport of boxing and pounding the **** out of that punching bag but with those big heavy gloves, the contact of the plastic gloves to the plastic covering of the bag makes it so impersonal. With my raw hands, i want to knock make a ******* hole in the wall, punch the **** out of someones jaw. My direct skin to the first thing in sight. No gloves, no ****** Doll. Just me and my open ****** knuckles to do the talking for when my mouth can't.
I'd say writing is my outlet but my words have never been sharp enough to cut wounds in someone's skins as deep as they made mine.