I know we may never be one of the dream people
who make their faces and words, world symbols.
These are things we say we are. You and me.
We need no one to define us.
our minds keep and align us
cozy in our deception like wigged-out mothers.
But we need others to believe that we are what we are
in order to make us reality.
An artist without proof is an empty box.
And we go unfed,
though we ache like ***-hungry puppies.
to do a **** thing, but weep,
yearning to **** on a whopping heap of the good-life.
But we go
Early twenties, and we're burnouts already, you and me,
about the meaning of life and the government and *******.
We met in college
my adorable Humanities degree
cupped in hand with his.
We found solace
in our disappointment because when we kiss
our sadnesses take root into each other.
So our rough, restless, god-angry loving
metaphorically, that is.
His desire puts me in a box, and he comes in with,
and we talk.
My desire sets his box full of flames
so he can climb out, and get free again.
But he knows life puts us all in a box
and you have to do things people want
in order to win the green paper you got just to keep
that box. One day
I hope to live in the same box as him.
I'll be in a foreign land, passing out the alphabet and bandages
and ignoring the world of green paper,
as I live in a box without a lid.
And, as the hot rain drops, my brain makes a fist
and I picture him.
We are now becoming quite a beautiful film, you and me
as he keeps his longing fastened up to mine
like a pair of overalls.
All the books I needed to write since I was seven years old will,
kills to say,
never happen, quite possibly.
I am attempting this thing, this poem
for you and me,
of the feeling inside to throw buckets of paint at the door.
The feeling I get at 2am
to cut holes into my fingertips
in order to string out an art piece from them.
The feeling that long, sunny Sundays give
to drink tea and wine and go canoeing while
a novel ***** out of me like a bleeding baby.
The feeling I always forget to jot down
after being ***** or mugged or misjudged or beaten to bruises
when everything is as painstakingly raw and red as poems
are wired to be.
The feeling that comes when it's just us,
he does things to my body that makes it crack into smiles
fantastic enough, it can't help but shatter like a mirror
all across the floor. You and me.
We exchange our hearts like gifts, and they are
And it's all
I've ever wanted.