I didn’t sleep but I had a nightmare.
I sat alone in my room in the dark
My greatest fears came true.
I messed up. I made you angry
I made it worse. I lost you.
I always said you’d leave.
They all do. No exceptions
When it happened it wasn’t a surprise
Rather it was a rude awakening
A rude awakening from a sweet dream
All my dreams had come true
But like a dream, It had to end
All dreams end the same
A quick jolt to the paralyzing fear
The realization that you were awake
Back to the mundane imperfect life
Back to a place you never wanted to be again
Back in the same old nightmare
That was my night
Not one filled with sleep and sweet dreams
One where i was wide awake living my greatest nightmare
I opened my eyes to the harsh reality without you
It was lonely and empty
I was lonely and empty
The darkness filled the room and it engulfed me.
I became what the room was
Dark, hidden, terrified
I wanted out
Voices screamed louder than ever before
Reassuring me of how terrible i was
How alone i was
How afraid I was
But I could never tell you
I could never paint you as the villain
I could never put you in the same position as me
Living the greatest nightmare