I pretend it doesn't hurt
I close my eyes,  and picture
A fantasy,  based on a reality
My mind couldn't capture
This intensity, it's new to me

I pretend I'm not afraid
But I'm ashamed of this game I play
No rules,  no winner in the end
But what can I say,  
I just really need a friend

I pretend I'm not lost,
That I'm not confused
Truth is..  I dont know what to do
But I'm stuck in this inbetween
And not as happy as I seem

I pretend I'm strong
But that's wrong, because I can't really fight back
And I'm so far off track
The days turning pitch black

I pretend I'm happy
Cause it's easier than the truth
I'm not abused,  just dying inside from being used

And in the end,  
I'll keep playing this game
Cause it's easier to pretend
Than admit my shame