There's so much I want to say, but all the words stay jumbled up in my chest.
There's so much that I'm feeling that I don't want to feel.
I used to want to cut out this heart out of my chest,
But after awhile I realized that this heart of mine
Should not be hated – but thanked for.
I used to want to be numb—
Feel nothing at all.
But having the ability to feel
Is what makes me me.
If I didn't have a heart,
But just an empty cavity,
Then I wouldn't be able to care about
You
Or
You
Or
You.
& the truth is that
I care about you and you and you a lot.