I lost it / everything crumbled underneath my / shaking knees and quivering heart / pupils blurred by salt / water and mouth filled with sharp liquid metal / from biting down the slurs I want to throw at the mirror / i can feel the weight i carry around on my bones / i see the way i move in reflections / it disgusts me and i crave nothingness / weightlessness / emptiness / 130 does not mean a single thing /when there is 120 / 110 / 100 / 90 / 80 /60 / 50 / 40 / 30 / 20 / 10 / when there's zero when I can feel zero and be zero.