I fade in to a coma of unawareness, where I sit in my mind not focusing on nothing as if I'm just floating in a starless space, but as sudden as I fade I embark on the memories process, of remembering everything precious memories at a time.

But as soon as I remember you,  then everything I've live, love and loathed becomes irritant, only you please my mind, as if a have known each other for years and years and only now I have realized I've been lost!

As I set to take the slow journey of gaining enough strength to conquer the massive mountain of confusing and teenage embarrassment which is the process of speaking normally to you

I tumble

But next time around, I won't be awkward, ill start a conversation maybe ill get out a nerdy greeting like hhhheeeelllooo

After this embarrassment that is my social interaction, I start the draw out process of teenage rehab, of question weather your worth the effort
But that me trying to rid the discomfort
But I should just ask

But

If she shows the attention, ill be listening but not judging
If she leaves ill question but won't push
Ill be annoyed, but not to the point of anger towards her. But to myself, what if I talked less?
What if I cleaned my act and didn't act like a mess?

Was it worth the show

But if I knew what I know now then,
I would look to the sky and say I painted that for you,
I would take you to the sea and say I've crossed that for you
I would bring the most beautiful rose and I picked that for you
As ridiculous as that sounds

I know She'll be out this listening but won't be hearing
She'll be seeing but not processing

So the next time I climb that mountain
Ill be weary but not reluctant
I would be confident, but not arrogant,
Playful but not childish
So I can build enough strength to get out another hhhheeeelllooo