I cannot explain why I have this pain
In my heart and in my soul
I cannot let go
I can't let go that you're not here anymore
I can't let go that you will never be back
That I'll never hear your voice again
That I'll never be forced into those sort of bear hugs you liked to give me (even though you knew that I hated hugs)
That I'll never hear the funny laugh you had (when you really truly laughed)
Now you're a million miles away
I don't know if you're alive, married to some girl in Vegas
I don't know if you're dying on a corner of some street I don't know of
I don't know where you are, what you are doing, who and what you have left behind, dead or alive
I don't know
I just know you left me and never looked back or sent a letter
I grieve your death just the same
When you left you basically died
You killed your image in me
An image never fading
I still hate hugs even though I miss yours
I still miss your voice and laughter, but you're gone now
And you promised to never come back
*It looks like you're keeping your promise rather well