I never used to cry this hard, not even when he was pronounced dead. They pronounce you dead because that becomes your new name; you are nothing but a carcass that needs to be dealt with before it rots. Sometimes I see him, with a daisy tucked behind one ear and a pen behind the other. Bare-footed, of course. He always told me how important it is to know as well as to feel where you are going. Death is more than an acquaintance to me, we've met on many terms. The first time I encountered death was when she carried a part of me there in her *****. I never left and I don't think I ever will. You broke the dam behind my eyes (you made me feel like I never thought I could) and I don't have enough materials to patch it up. I'm desperately trying to fix myself but I can't; you're holding of my resources in your arms instead of holding me. Please put your lips on mine before I drown us both.