One of the hardest things a person has to do, is pretend that they do not love a person.
You get asked questions like
Do you still love him?
no.
Do you still think about him?
no.
Does it not bother you that he picked her over you?
no.
Then they proceed to compliment you on being so strong
They praise your broken heart, your dead heart, your heavy breathing, your excessive shaking whenever you think about him or think about how much you love him.
They see a hero when all you really are is a shattered soul aching for his love, his attention, the warmth of his skin against yours.